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Friday, January 25, 2008
Memoirs : Feb 21 1999
Feb 21, 1999 (pic date)
LOL. Look at me >__< .. so young... well we are both very young then.. He was my bestfriend and partner in everything, he was my protector, my constant admirer and yet he was my deepest agony, my most painful struggle, my dream, my inspiration, he was the source of my happiness, my strength, he was my weakness, my most sensitive piece, he was my music, my thought, my wisdom.. He WAS . He isn't anymore and will never ever be.. Im glad ..
She Says.. He Says.. Its you I want to Fall Inlove with
SHE SAYS...
If you see me walking the road with someone else It's not because I like his company It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me If you hear me talking about him all the time It's not because he pleases me It's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat If you feel me falling in love with someone else It's not because I love him But because you're not there to catch me fall If you feel lost, I am nowhere too I don't know where the road is going Are we gonna cross each other's path? Or just completely turn around? Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound? Don't let me walk with him It's you I want to walk with Don't let me talk of him It's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall in love with him It's you I want to fall in love with...
HE SAYS...
When you though I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you I was behind you every step o f the way Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat I didn't want to assume anything And I was afraid to lose our friendship When you thought I wasn't there to catch you It's because you never gave me the chance You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch If you feel like nowhere, I am lost too I don't know where the road is going Are we going to turn around, Or we gonna cross each others' path? Will we just let go of what we had? Or go to the place where love is bound? Don't let me walk alone I want to walk by your side Don't let me talk with someone else It's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall for someone else It's you I want to fall in love with.
HE SAYS...
When you though I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you I was behind you every step o f the way Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat I didn't want to assume anything And I was afraid to lose our friendship When you thought I wasn't there to catch you It's because you never gave me the chance You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch If you feel like nowhere, I am lost too I don't know where the road is going Are we going to turn around, Or we gonna cross each others' path? Will we just let go of what we had? Or go to the place where love is bound? Don't let me walk alone I want to walk by your side Don't let me talk with someone else It's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall for someone else It's you I want to fall in love with.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Kisses All Over XOXO
Kissing is a blend of passion and romance. It adds that 'wow' factor to a relationship! A great kiss does makes us dizzy with desire - Isn't it? A “kiss” signifies lot of meaning, and as there are so many different kind of kisses... let's get going to see what your lover says when he or she kisses U!
THE VACUUM KISS:
The Vacuum Kiss is performed by "sucking inward as though you were trying to draw out the innards of an orange." The powerful suction on the lips requires must be brief. The lips should not be torn suddenly apart, or a loud smack will startle others nearby. Instead, gently loosen a corner of the mouth to release a faint hissing.
THE BUTTERFLY FLUTTER:
Place your eye within a breath of your partner's cheek. Open and close your eyelids against her skin. Keep in mind that the flutter sensation on her cheek should match the one in her heart!
THE EARLOBE LAP:
Have you ever experimented with light kissing of the lobe? A great control is recommended to avoid loud slurping-- don't forget that the sensitive ear is also an especially sensitized noise detector. (Be careful not to swallow any earrings! Then all your passion will be in vain.)
THE TALKING KISS:
Sweet nothings whispered into the mouth are sweeter than those whispered into the ear! The mouth is the preferred organ for tasting. If caught in the act, simply say, as Chico Marx, "I wasn't kissing her. I was whispering into her mouth."
THE SPYING KISS:
To determine whether you mate has drunk an over abundance of wine.
THE HAND KISS:
The Hand Kiss is requires a bow of subordination to show deference to a lady. Hand Kisses have now fallen out of fashion. It makes an unexpected romantic impression. To perform it , lower your eyes and cup shoulders over the lady's fingers, prolonging the moment when your lips rest on her hand.
THE BUMPER KISS:
Effective when following your lover in a separate car. Wait till he stops his vehicle at a traffic light, then gently ease your car up to his and nudge his bumper. The jolt will jump-start his heart and suggest more intimate nuzzlings to come. (Warning: Do not use the Bumper Kiss on the vehicle of an unknown driver.)
THE SURPRISE KISS:
To begin, gather men and women in a circle and try passing a playing card from mouth to mouth by first inhaling to receive the card and then exhaling to pass the card to the person. If the pass is successful, you will be left feeling pleasantly light headed. If the pass is unsuccessful, the card will slip, leaving your lips pressed to those of your unsuspecting neighbor. (To cheat at this game, simply position yourself beside someone you would like to kiss and pretend you're having trouble mastering the technique.)
THE MISTLETOE KISS:
Useful for those who are too shy to make the leap towards a potential lover's lips without a visible excuse.
THE FOREHEAD KISS:
Kissing on forehead is sign of parental love! Isn't it great when mom or dad give you a kiss on the forehead... it feels like heaven!
THE ESKIMO KISS:
Contrary to popular belief, the Eskimo Kiss is not done merely to keep the lips from freezing together. In fact, some tribes in hot African countries rub or press noses in greeting and use a word for "kiss" that means "smell." In Malaysia, Charles Darwin reported the following: "The woman squatted with their faces upturned; my attendants stood leaning over them, laid the bridge of their noses at right angles over theirs, and commenced rubbing. It lasted somewhat longer than a hearty handshake with us. During this process they uttered a grunt of satisfaction."
THE HICKEY KISS:
It may take some practice to create a personalized hickey in the your favorite shape! No need to get fancy. The main objective is simply to avoid drawing blood while leaving your mark that will prove to your sweetheart (and all her girlfriends) that last night's interlude was not a dream!
THE FRENCH KISS:
Some call this "The Soul Kiss," because the life and soul are thought to pass through the mouth's breath in the exchange across tongues. Surprisingly, the French call this "The English Kiss."
THE AUNT SALLY SPECIAL:
A hearty smack to the cheek, done with puckered, slobbery, lipstick lips. The female kisser should employ the Aunt Sally Special when a sobering note is needed during an escalating affair. If done right, this smooch will cause your partner to stop and wipe the spit of his cheek, which, in turn, will allow you to fix your hair and adjust your skirt.
THE FOOT KISS:
People with ticklish feet will find the Foot Kiss quite funny, but just relax and enjoy it. Afterward, an extra touch of romance can be added by sending a little note signed "QBSP" (Quien besa su pie--"Who kisses your feet"), which once was the fashionable line with which to close correspondence in Spain.
THE NIP KISS:
The procedure is the same as the ordinary kiss except that, instead of closing your lips with the kiss, you leave them slightly open, as though you were going to nibble on a delicious tidbit.
THE MARATHON MAKE-OUT KISS:
In the words of Elizabeth Barrett Browning, it is "as long and silent as the ecstatic might."
THE LAST KISS:
In ancient Rome, custom had it that the Last Kiss would capture the soul of a dying man and keep it alive in the lips of his lover.
Taken from one of my favorite articles : valentines4all
THE VACUUM KISS:
The Vacuum Kiss is performed by "sucking inward as though you were trying to draw out the innards of an orange." The powerful suction on the lips requires must be brief. The lips should not be torn suddenly apart, or a loud smack will startle others nearby. Instead, gently loosen a corner of the mouth to release a faint hissing.
THE BUTTERFLY FLUTTER:
Place your eye within a breath of your partner's cheek. Open and close your eyelids against her skin. Keep in mind that the flutter sensation on her cheek should match the one in her heart!
THE EARLOBE LAP:
Have you ever experimented with light kissing of the lobe? A great control is recommended to avoid loud slurping-- don't forget that the sensitive ear is also an especially sensitized noise detector. (Be careful not to swallow any earrings! Then all your passion will be in vain.)
THE TALKING KISS:
Sweet nothings whispered into the mouth are sweeter than those whispered into the ear! The mouth is the preferred organ for tasting. If caught in the act, simply say, as Chico Marx, "I wasn't kissing her. I was whispering into her mouth."
THE SPYING KISS:
To determine whether you mate has drunk an over abundance of wine.
THE HAND KISS:
The Hand Kiss is requires a bow of subordination to show deference to a lady. Hand Kisses have now fallen out of fashion. It makes an unexpected romantic impression. To perform it , lower your eyes and cup shoulders over the lady's fingers, prolonging the moment when your lips rest on her hand.
THE BUMPER KISS:
Effective when following your lover in a separate car. Wait till he stops his vehicle at a traffic light, then gently ease your car up to his and nudge his bumper. The jolt will jump-start his heart and suggest more intimate nuzzlings to come. (Warning: Do not use the Bumper Kiss on the vehicle of an unknown driver.)
THE SURPRISE KISS:
To begin, gather men and women in a circle and try passing a playing card from mouth to mouth by first inhaling to receive the card and then exhaling to pass the card to the person. If the pass is successful, you will be left feeling pleasantly light headed. If the pass is unsuccessful, the card will slip, leaving your lips pressed to those of your unsuspecting neighbor. (To cheat at this game, simply position yourself beside someone you would like to kiss and pretend you're having trouble mastering the technique.)
THE MISTLETOE KISS:
Useful for those who are too shy to make the leap towards a potential lover's lips without a visible excuse.
THE FOREHEAD KISS:
Kissing on forehead is sign of parental love! Isn't it great when mom or dad give you a kiss on the forehead... it feels like heaven!
THE ESKIMO KISS:
Contrary to popular belief, the Eskimo Kiss is not done merely to keep the lips from freezing together. In fact, some tribes in hot African countries rub or press noses in greeting and use a word for "kiss" that means "smell." In Malaysia, Charles Darwin reported the following: "The woman squatted with their faces upturned; my attendants stood leaning over them, laid the bridge of their noses at right angles over theirs, and commenced rubbing. It lasted somewhat longer than a hearty handshake with us. During this process they uttered a grunt of satisfaction."
THE HICKEY KISS:
It may take some practice to create a personalized hickey in the your favorite shape! No need to get fancy. The main objective is simply to avoid drawing blood while leaving your mark that will prove to your sweetheart (and all her girlfriends) that last night's interlude was not a dream!
THE FRENCH KISS:
Some call this "The Soul Kiss," because the life and soul are thought to pass through the mouth's breath in the exchange across tongues. Surprisingly, the French call this "The English Kiss."
THE AUNT SALLY SPECIAL:
A hearty smack to the cheek, done with puckered, slobbery, lipstick lips. The female kisser should employ the Aunt Sally Special when a sobering note is needed during an escalating affair. If done right, this smooch will cause your partner to stop and wipe the spit of his cheek, which, in turn, will allow you to fix your hair and adjust your skirt.
THE FOOT KISS:
People with ticklish feet will find the Foot Kiss quite funny, but just relax and enjoy it. Afterward, an extra touch of romance can be added by sending a little note signed "QBSP" (Quien besa su pie--"Who kisses your feet"), which once was the fashionable line with which to close correspondence in Spain.
THE NIP KISS:
The procedure is the same as the ordinary kiss except that, instead of closing your lips with the kiss, you leave them slightly open, as though you were going to nibble on a delicious tidbit.
THE MARATHON MAKE-OUT KISS:
In the words of Elizabeth Barrett Browning, it is "as long and silent as the ecstatic might."
THE LAST KISS:
In ancient Rome, custom had it that the Last Kiss would capture the soul of a dying man and keep it alive in the lips of his lover.
Taken from one of my favorite articles : valentines4all
Sunday, January 13, 2008
The Bigger Leap
LOL . I haven't been even certified and yet i wrote this. Well, not that i'm confident i will pass it but i know that i can do my best at times, and one of those time MUST be, tonight . Lol
Well, i guess everyone's clueless.. and even my constant blogger friends and blog readers wont be able to comprehend. Okay, here's how it goes..
After a long time hibernation from the real-world i've decided to to step out of the world again and reclaim myself. I found a job in one of the call centers in Makati and believe me, not in my closest imagination i thought of being with this company. However I gave it a chance, anyways, Im trying to live my life away from the "usual things" and i'm striving , this time doing some "unusual ways". Err, im not selling drugs LOL.
I must admit that letting go of myself is tasting sweeter and sweeter each day. I never thought that meeting people, having friends, being with a company would be so much fun that im really getting addicted to it..But being the independent person that i am, i know that people come and go into our lives and that nothing in this universe is more permanent than change.
Well, after almost a month of classroom training, our class will be dispersed to different subteams with different scheds and Offs, Huh..I dont like that, but well, thats how it really goes, we dont trully expect our schedules would be so uptight we cant even have a common rest day, i guess, the videoke and beer days are gone, too soon.. =( . Sad..
My life right now is not perfect, but it certainly is not the worst, in fact, i'm happy, yes i am and its been so long since i last said I was.
My new friends taught me a lot of things i should have known already at my age , but only recently i learned that its okay to get close and to get lost, to belong and to depart, that its okay to laugh your heart out today even when you know, it will break tomorrow. at the moment, im learning to enjoy even things that would not last, im learning to accept momentary beauty, im beginning the see the importance of existence, no matter how short, how simple,no matter how odd..
So for everyone, thank you so much for your friendship.. We wont stop here guys, we will see each other from both ends of the floor right? Anjo, James, Vada, Ehmei, Lanie, Icee, Irvin, Julius, Raymond, Louie, Ges, Vince, Pyke.. Everyone, Thank you very much for making me comfortable, cared and remembered. because of you guys..
Im moving forward, im moving on.
After a long time hibernation from the real-world i've decided to to step out of the world again and reclaim myself. I found a job in one of the call centers in Makati and believe me, not in my closest imagination i thought of being with this company. However I gave it a chance, anyways, Im trying to live my life away from the "usual things" and i'm striving , this time doing some "unusual ways". Err, im not selling drugs LOL.
I must admit that letting go of myself is tasting sweeter and sweeter each day. I never thought that meeting people, having friends, being with a company would be so much fun that im really getting addicted to it..But being the independent person that i am, i know that people come and go into our lives and that nothing in this universe is more permanent than change.
Well, after almost a month of classroom training, our class will be dispersed to different subteams with different scheds and Offs, Huh..I dont like that, but well, thats how it really goes, we dont trully expect our schedules would be so uptight we cant even have a common rest day, i guess, the videoke and beer days are gone, too soon.. =( . Sad..
My life right now is not perfect, but it certainly is not the worst, in fact, i'm happy, yes i am and its been so long since i last said I was.
My new friends taught me a lot of things i should have known already at my age , but only recently i learned that its okay to get close and to get lost, to belong and to depart, that its okay to laugh your heart out today even when you know, it will break tomorrow. at the moment, im learning to enjoy even things that would not last, im learning to accept momentary beauty, im beginning the see the importance of existence, no matter how short, how simple,no matter how odd..
So for everyone, thank you so much for your friendship.. We wont stop here guys, we will see each other from both ends of the floor right? Anjo, James, Vada, Ehmei, Lanie, Icee, Irvin, Julius, Raymond, Louie, Ges, Vince, Pyke.. Everyone, Thank you very much for making me comfortable, cared and remembered. because of you guys..
Im moving forward, im moving on.
Friday, January 11, 2008
For Class 23C
Class 23C. WaMu. Mau Mendoza . Vada Mendoza . Ehmei Acosta . Lanie Tuazon . Pyke Consul . RB Balinas . Anjo Soriano . Ges Dellota . Irvin Domingo . Julius Ang . ICEE . Vince Jagoring . Louie Mercado . James Olega . SHALOM
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Huh : Tagged ?
Wow. I just got tagged, i didn't realize people around would remember me, as most (if not all) posts that i have in my blog are my thoughts, actually less ads, as i want it more personalized, but being tagged is just so flattering. So i'm gonna make way for this, and i'm going to answer all questions without inhibitions, just for the sake of simply showing the real me, after all, this is My Corner..
thanks to diwa
1.You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
Of course, but im not the obsessive compulsive type that needs medical attention already
2.You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
I am, i like competition, and i like winning, i don't stop till i get what i want
3.People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.
Thats true, when i made up my mind, thats something not even the universe can change.
4.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
Hmmmm.. Its yet to see LOL
5.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
I dont. In thick or thin i stay. I accept. I endure. They say there's no more room in heaven for martyrs, well then...
6.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
Sometimes, its common to loose interest along the way, but mostly, i am very diligent to
my obligations.
7.You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
Yeah, thats right! but given that fact ive been loyal to the only person who broke my
heart.
8.You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
Sure thing, otherwise if i know i cant get it i wont even think about it.
9.You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!
Whoah.. rule the world huh. ^___^
10.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
Yes.. Perfect makes perfect.
11.You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
Yup.. but being also negative attracts negative impression, anyhow, who cares, you cannot really please everyone, right ?
12.You have the classic "Type A" personality.
Huh??
13.You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
Sometimes.. lalim naman ..
14.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
Sometimes.. i did that once but i felt i left my heart at home it was very troubling, and yet i
think i did right, it was something i really have to do, not just for the sake of trying it but
also for self fulfillment.
15.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.
Not really.. I am righteous at most times if i dont know what to choose, i play safe..
16.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
Try me.. LOL
17.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
Depends on what im thinking..
18.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
Unfortunately, yes. LOL
19.You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful.
I am..
20.You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
Not there yet..
21.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
I guess so, at times i just want to be isolated from the rest of the world and enjoy time. by
myself..
22.You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
Definitely not.
23.You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
Hmm.. im very moody...
24.You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Yes, at times, but not always, i like surprises so i love giving one too!!
25.Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.
Hehehe i guess so..
26.You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
No, im not like that.
27.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
A little of everything does not hurt right?
28.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
Not applicable at the moment, nyahahaha
thanks to diwa
1.You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
Of course, but im not the obsessive compulsive type that needs medical attention already
2.You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
I am, i like competition, and i like winning, i don't stop till i get what i want
3.People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.
Thats true, when i made up my mind, thats something not even the universe can change.
4.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
Hmmmm.. Its yet to see LOL
5.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
I dont. In thick or thin i stay. I accept. I endure. They say there's no more room in heaven for martyrs, well then...
6.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
Sometimes, its common to loose interest along the way, but mostly, i am very diligent to
my obligations.
7.You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
Yeah, thats right! but given that fact ive been loyal to the only person who broke my
heart.
8.You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
Sure thing, otherwise if i know i cant get it i wont even think about it.
9.You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!
Whoah.. rule the world huh. ^___^
10.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
Yes.. Perfect makes perfect.
11.You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
Yup.. but being also negative attracts negative impression, anyhow, who cares, you cannot really please everyone, right ?
12.You have the classic "Type A" personality.
Huh??
13.You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
Sometimes.. lalim naman ..
14.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
Sometimes.. i did that once but i felt i left my heart at home it was very troubling, and yet i
think i did right, it was something i really have to do, not just for the sake of trying it but
also for self fulfillment.
15.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.
Not really.. I am righteous at most times if i dont know what to choose, i play safe..
16.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
Try me.. LOL
17.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
Depends on what im thinking..
18.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
Unfortunately, yes. LOL
19.You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful.
I am..
20.You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
Not there yet..
21.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
I guess so, at times i just want to be isolated from the rest of the world and enjoy time. by
myself..
22.You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
Definitely not.
23.You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
Hmm.. im very moody...
24.You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Yes, at times, but not always, i like surprises so i love giving one too!!
25.Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.
Hehehe i guess so..
26.You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
No, im not like that.
27.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
A little of everything does not hurt right?
28.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
Not applicable at the moment, nyahahaha
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
All I Need Is Love
Somewhere in the web you will find this, yes, because i wrote it it a few years back.
Dear,
I'm quite sure you wont even bother reading my blog, i don't even know if you are aware i have one, nonetheless, i need you to listen to me, even just by simply scrolling down till the end..
When i met you, i realized how good it is to love and have someone. Those where the happiest days of my life, i was proud and blessed to have you, as a partner as a friend as a lover, we've been through good and bad times together, we made a great team, we've never left each other no matter what. I felt secured having you, contented in the thought that i have you to love me.
I admit that ours is not a perfect relationship, but to be perfect means to go through imperfections, flaws, misunderstandings, throughout the years, there were countless of those trials that made us stronger, more mature in this so called relationship bound by love.Thats what i have always believed.
I don't know what happened,because in the midst of everything, i suddenly felt that some things are slipping away, I don't know, i have a feeling that something isn't right but i was too afraid to know and realize that i'm right.One morning i woke up and you're already gone and i felt like dying. I beg you asked you to stay, come back... come back to me... this is just like the other mornings when fates tries to butt into our relationship, i guess i was baby, i truly want to think i'm mistaken thou i don't feel like one..
People judge me because i opted to keep you, People said that i should let you go, and i know that in my heart in its deepest, i sure want to do the same thing, but i cannot i dont know, i just cant.. It pains me in the thought that i can freely give my life for you but i cant give you your own happiness, because i know that your happiness is away from me, so much away from me, i was afraid that you will take with you the biggest part of me, and that i will never be fine anymore, im so afraid to loose you thou in my heart i want to let you go.
I guess im such a looser cause i cant accept that fact that after only 7 years that we are together you have stopped loving me, No this cant be happening, this is not true, I would always want to believe that someday i will realize that this just temporary, then again the pain is just too much, too much for me to be in denial.. How can you come to my life, beg me to love you and leave me just like that?..
Every night i pray that you will somehow learn to love me again ,little by little, endless nights, endless prayers, Thou i was happy in thought that were still together, but i'm afraid that because you don't feel the same way, You'll unconsciously hurt my feelings, and you did, i guess i no longer need to tell you how often i cry and how much i know, i just don't intend to start another fight, because then again you'll just tell me i don't have to endure everything, because i can always go..those words are even far hurtful than everything i've come to know..
I don't know until when i can stand loving you, keeping you or punishing you, I cannot really tell, But i sure want everything to change for the better, I still pray, i still hope, and believe in the best even at situations as worst as this. I never asked for too much when i met you 8 years back, but only to be my friend, and more than thankful of me because you gave me much..
All i need is love, just love ...
So easy for you to insist me to take more than what i ask you for.and now aking everything back.. more than you ever gave.. leaving me with less than nothing.
Years back i told you.. all i need is love.
Just Love..
I wrote this letter 2 years ago, and i have it posted somewhere in the cyberspace also, now i read it once again and it felt different, i felt happier, although i am still hurting, i felt something dissimilar to how i feel when i wrote it, i guess, i'm doing right.. even if it takes longer, or.. two steps forward, a step back.
Dear,
I'm quite sure you wont even bother reading my blog, i don't even know if you are aware i have one, nonetheless, i need you to listen to me, even just by simply scrolling down till the end..
When i met you, i realized how good it is to love and have someone. Those where the happiest days of my life, i was proud and blessed to have you, as a partner as a friend as a lover, we've been through good and bad times together, we made a great team, we've never left each other no matter what. I felt secured having you, contented in the thought that i have you to love me.
I admit that ours is not a perfect relationship, but to be perfect means to go through imperfections, flaws, misunderstandings, throughout the years, there were countless of those trials that made us stronger, more mature in this so called relationship bound by love.Thats what i have always believed.
I don't know what happened,because in the midst of everything, i suddenly felt that some things are slipping away, I don't know, i have a feeling that something isn't right but i was too afraid to know and realize that i'm right.One morning i woke up and you're already gone and i felt like dying. I beg you asked you to stay, come back... come back to me... this is just like the other mornings when fates tries to butt into our relationship, i guess i was baby, i truly want to think i'm mistaken thou i don't feel like one..
People judge me because i opted to keep you, People said that i should let you go, and i know that in my heart in its deepest, i sure want to do the same thing, but i cannot i dont know, i just cant.. It pains me in the thought that i can freely give my life for you but i cant give you your own happiness, because i know that your happiness is away from me, so much away from me, i was afraid that you will take with you the biggest part of me, and that i will never be fine anymore, im so afraid to loose you thou in my heart i want to let you go.
I guess im such a looser cause i cant accept that fact that after only 7 years that we are together you have stopped loving me, No this cant be happening, this is not true, I would always want to believe that someday i will realize that this just temporary, then again the pain is just too much, too much for me to be in denial.. How can you come to my life, beg me to love you and leave me just like that?..
Every night i pray that you will somehow learn to love me again ,little by little, endless nights, endless prayers, Thou i was happy in thought that were still together, but i'm afraid that because you don't feel the same way, You'll unconsciously hurt my feelings, and you did, i guess i no longer need to tell you how often i cry and how much i know, i just don't intend to start another fight, because then again you'll just tell me i don't have to endure everything, because i can always go..those words are even far hurtful than everything i've come to know..
I don't know until when i can stand loving you, keeping you or punishing you, I cannot really tell, But i sure want everything to change for the better, I still pray, i still hope, and believe in the best even at situations as worst as this. I never asked for too much when i met you 8 years back, but only to be my friend, and more than thankful of me because you gave me much..
All i need is love, just love ...
So easy for you to insist me to take more than what i ask you for.and now aking everything back.. more than you ever gave.. leaving me with less than nothing.
Years back i told you.. all i need is love.
Just Love..
I wrote this letter 2 years ago, and i have it posted somewhere in the cyberspace also, now i read it once again and it felt different, i felt happier, although i am still hurting, i felt something dissimilar to how i feel when i wrote it, i guess, i'm doing right.. even if it takes longer, or.. two steps forward, a step back.
People Come Into Your Life For A Reason
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind yes, but friendship is clairvoyant.
Naruto and Hinata
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season!LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind yes, but friendship is clairvoyant.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
What Jesus Got for Christmas
"On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me.." This is one of the most common song about the 12 days of Christmas.people who have no exposure to the Church Year Calendar will not understand why Christmas have 12 days, they may understand the part about giving gifts, but they have no idea why the gift-giving lasts 12 days. To them Christmas is one day—December 25—not 12, and that is the day to give presents.
The Epiphany, the Theopany
Well, if we were to count from December 25 to January 6, one would find that is a total of 12 days. So what’s so special about January 6? That is the day, not December 25, the ancient church celebrated as the most important day of the year (next to Easter), because on that day the Messiah appeared to the Gentiles, the Wise Men. Just as the season of Advent preceding Christmas reminds us of the coming of Christ at his birth, so the appearance of Christ to the Wise Men reminds us that God was in Christ fulfilling his promise to save the whole world. The Wise Men were only the first installment in God’s gracious plan to reclaim the mankind for himself. January 6 is the day the Church chose to celebrate the coming of the Wise Men, and they called it Epiphany, the Greek word that means "appearance" or "manifestation". There is another Greek word that has long been associated with that one, and it is Theophany, which means an "appearance of God". All through the Old Testament God appeared to various individuals in human or physical forms, and there is reason to understand those as appearances as the Son of God, prior to his coming as a baby in Bethlehem. Looking back from Old Testament appearances God was encouraging Jews and Gentiles alike to look forward to the day when he would finally appear as the Messiah to take away the sins of the whole world. So Epiphany is the celebration of the supreme Theophany. That appearance not only includes Christ’s baptism, but it also includes his powerful ministry to save the world.
The Magis
In Christian tradition the Magi, also known as the Three Wise Men, The Three Kings, or Kings from the East - although it is not said in the Bible how many Magi there really were - are sometimes considered to be Median, perhaps Iranian Zoroastrian priests, who were also proficient in astrology from Ancient Persia. The Gospel of Matthew states that they came "from the east to Jerusalem" to worship the Christ, "born King of the Jews". According to Matthew, they navigated by following a star which came to be known as the "The Star of Bethlehem". As they approached Jerusalem, Herod tried to trick them into revealing where Jesus was, so that he might be put to death. Upon finding Jesus, the Magi gave him three highly symbolic gifts: gold, frankincense and myrrh. Because three gifts were recorded, it is traditionally said to have been three Magi, though Matthew does not specify the number.
Christ's Presents
Gold . A familiar carol says it so well. “Born a King on Bethlehem’s, Gold I bring to crown Him again.” .. As Gold is the symbol of wealth, and power, and excellence. Isn't that We still give gold medals and trophies to those who achieve great things? Our wealth, signifies the investment of our time and the application of our abilities. Our “gold,” whether it’s money or some other entity, shows what’s important in our life. What we do with our “gold” reveals what we hold to be of greatest value. It was important to the Magi to find the Savior of the world, and when they found him they honored him with their substance, that gold that speaks of his royal authority. Therefore When Jesus receives Gold, its meant that he is "King"
Frankincense. “Frankincense to offer have I; incense owns a Deity nigh.” In the Bible, incense is a symbol of prayer and worship, for it was offered along with the sacrifices of the sanctuary. . When the Magi offered incense to the Christ child, they were acknowledging that they knelt in the presence of the holy. It was no mere earthly ruler who had come to birth in Bethlehem, but a heavenly one, the Son of God. How the wise men understood this we cannot tell, but they did, and their gift shows it. And so they came, worshiping — bending theie knees, falling down before the Christ, perhaps bowing in awed silence in the presence of a divine mystery they could not fathom. When the magi gave Jesus this present, it meant to say, that Jesus is Holy, as he is "God".
Myrrh. What kind of a gift is this for a newborn — myrrh, a spice used in preparing a body for burial? Death is usually the furthest thing from our minds when welcoming a new child into the world. Yet, somehow, the Magi knew that this child of Bethlehem was destined for death — not in the massacre of King Herod, who murdered many innocent children in trying to wipe out this threat to his rule, but death on a cross bearing the sins of the world. Somehow they understood what would happen to this child, and their understanding was perhaps confirmed when they saw the reaction of the Jerusalem leaders to the news they brought of the birth of a ruler. And so they came, kneeling in humility before a King, kneeling in worship before a God, and kneeling in sorrow before a Savior who would one day give his life for them. Myrrh being given to Jesus meant that those who are born will die, and that Jesus for the love of the world shows he is Human.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
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