Emoing

I've been through a lot lately..
I dont know maybe growing up does not really take an overnight, me, being naturally stubborn learning really takes time, i guess, because the more i see it the more i deny it, its because my heart is just too big to accept it.
I was on the bus heading home from Cubao, i just signed another job offer. Luck is coming my way, It should be, its my birthday, I should have started in tthat company 3 months back, unfortunately i chose to work closer, therefor, i went for Eperformax..
As i was heading home, im feeling a bit emoional having my music player maxed on.. Feels good to let it go, anyways, nobody would care, im at the rear part of the bus and the windows are adorned with thick draperies, so i just let it all go, everything im feeling and somehow it made me feel better.. being in tune to what you feel, not preventing yourself from remembering people associated with the songs you hear.. Accepting it..all of it..happiness, longing,pain embracing every experience at the moment .. acknowledging their existence..
Life..28 yrs of me.
It was a long movie, but it was worthwhile to remember it.. yah just remember it, never live on it..

Just wish me a Happy Birthday

My Birthday is almost here.. except that its a special day for me because its the day i was born or the day that made my parents happy, other than that, maybe thats just one ordinary day.. But heres the catch.. how many people on earth were born on a leap year.. Lol, because i was..

Yeah.. i was told i was really born early morning of February 29, and since my parents would prefer me to be more likely "normal" i was registered in Pasig Municipality under February 28.. since that was the closest.. more or less.. Theres nothing really special about that day.. actually i thought that this will be one memorable birthday for me.. but i guess i can only hope for the best at this moment..Even i dont know where to go right now. I am confused with my own life and i dont know which turns are wrong..

Since November, I was fearing that this day would come that I'd be alone.. and i guess i would really be..Well, its my birthday anyways..so i guess I just have to live the fact that being alone that day would be okay.. On my birthday i wont take my phone with me, even if i know i will be rained with calls and greetings, i will reserve this time to myself..Enjoying myself, loving myself since no one does... Where will i go? grr I got limited budget.. i just lost my job didn't I? But where? Ill go abroad hehehe or ill go to zamboanga and play roseonline in Edwins computer shop, maybe ill go to Bataan to meet Lalaine and her cousins..Maybe i'll go to Roly's and spend a day in the pc shop with his friends. Maybe ill go to Elbi and drink all night with our badminton friends. or Maybe ill go see old friends and enjoy a nice Mary Kay make over.. Maybe i can also go to Tagaytay myself, walk walk and walk until im so dead exhausted. or i can go to Cubao and take the next trip to Baguio, or maybe i can go Star City alone and ride all the stuffs that i fear of. Or maybe i can go Batangas pier and take the earliest boat going Galera.. or the cheapest ferry going to Calapan, heading home to Naujan..

Where..?

Maybe also i can ask MrMouse extra money so i can buy a ticket to #*@@$ (decode that if u can) and hug one person then go back home. Maybe go to SG and take all pictures of myself everywhere. Or go to Bev in HK and have tea in Kowloon House.. I really think i deserve something for myself on that day.. but what??

Everything is so limited.. i feel like im in a cage but unwanted.. I wanna go far and i wanna be in a place where no one knows me..where i can cry and no one would care..i can laugh and go naked and no one would even bother to stare.. Where i can shout freely, carelessly, never minding any spectacles around..I wanna go to a place where i can leave it all.. The pain, the longging, the misery, the love. I think i deserve that right? if not always, well atleast on my birthday..

Im turning 28, and im still the same,childish me, im still the same me..Nothing good is happenning in my life, and i felt like the career im best at is being addictive to despair.. I wish that day would come and pass, because on that day i will again be reminded of how beautiful life is, excluding my own..

Well.. Just wish me a Happy Birthday..

Pie's New Phone Photos

Uploaded to Multiply..
Here are the photos (samples) uploaded from my sisters's new clam phone.. Ofcourse since thats her phone, some are her photos, some of photos at home, in the office, int he room, in the bed and of course yours truly.. hehe .. Indulge!



Thats my sister .. Pia Marie, ganda nya noh, she's younger
than me,she's 24 now.. oh she's a blogger too.. Some of her pics were taken from the office with her friends, some in our house while playing with our dogs.





Thats her trying to get my dog out under the table, she could not get her out, so she went herself down the floor.. see.. my Miki obeys only me.. you can only have her obey you if you have something to give her,or if you can give a nice scratch to her ears . bad doogie..hehehe

Then here i am, again lying down the bed hehe, why are my pics taken from the same spot? you might wonder why.. thats because the room's color was either too bright during the morning or too dull at night so thats the best place to give me the nicest color and effect. other than that im too lazy to even bother sitting or standing. .. again, thats me smiling on my own, 1.. 2.. 3.. Click!