Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts

Friday, February 26, 2010

What i want for my birthday

Hot. For a February it feels weird hot today, just when i actually thought it will rain and this is what i got.Crispy sunny sunshine above Singapore.
I should not care since i am inside most of the time, but heck the season gives me headaches and all sorts of negative feelings. I hate the sun, i hate the gleaming shine of sunlight in my window every morning. I hate the burning feeling of ultra violets in my skin. I despise the freedom of light that goes about anywhere it wants to.

Its my birthday tomorrow. I want rain.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

China at the Backyard


No!
Im not in China. but earlier tonight i went to someplace a few blocks from our flat and discover something amazing. You see, it all started with one fact - I got hungry.
And so.. this place is actually a market with a little space for food stalls, mind it, Chinese food. It was actually nice, and it taste really good, but more or less if you go to the Philippines its just some kind of a Point-Point .. grawarrr.. turo-turo.

They serve noodles, soups, chickens and ducks, ramen, sausages and even fish. Its Cheaper than the Pinoy food stalls in Lucky plaza but when it comes to taste it doesn't go any less.

Itchy Itchy Throat

Okay. So i think this is not just an ordinary cough or cold and i am guessing it might be some kind of allergy, because my throat keeps on itching, then and then and then. This is really getting to annoy me specially that i am needed to be at my best these days, whats itch gotta do with that? oh a lot!
The most popular remedy to temporarily kill the itch is sumthing i have long stopped eating, rather chewing - Gum. I feel tiny bits of peanuts stuck in my throat with all bits going in and out and all i can do to relieve myself is cough, cough so hard until my heart burns and my head is close to blowing and even until i wet my pants.
Damn this throat allergy.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Day 1: Singapore

Im here in a place where i have wanted to be a long time ago, and yet, i regret so much today, when the situation here is even worst than my own home, the only consolation i have is the benefit that my loved ones would get. But it just isn't fair, if i could only fly back then i would, in my room i have a fan, i have a bed,i have clean sheets, pillows, its not the best room there was, but its definitely far cry from where i am today.. It is very disappointing.. I wanna go home.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

21st Aug : A day of Commemorations



Today 21 August is a day I always remember for two things. First is because of a reason I share with the entire Filipino People – Ninoy’s Assassination which is also declared a holiday for the entire country. Second is something I shared will all my classmates in college, and colleagues, my alma mater STI’s Foundation Anniversary..
August 21 is a relevant date for Filipinos, because during this day, the nation commemorates the sacrifice of Benigno “Ninoy” Aquino, Jr. This year marks the 26th anniversary of Ninoy Aquino's assassination back in August 21, 1983 when he was shot in the head upon returning to Philippine soil amidst heated political turmoil.Although, the results of the case remain in questionable shadows, the Filipino people is sure of one thing - that Ninoy, as the hero he is, died for a worthy cause - the freedom and democracy of the Filipino people. As his famous quotable line today remains with his memory:
"The Filipino is worth dying for."
"To commemorate the 26th Anniversary of the assassination of Ninoy Aquino and to honor the memory of President Cory Aquino, the Benigno S. Aquino Jr. Foundation is declaring August 21, 2009 as “Araw ng Dilaw”. This Friday, every freedom-loving Filipino is urged to wear something yellow. We ask everyone to light a candle as a way of keeping the spirit of Ninoy and Cory alive and of reciprocating their love for the Filipino people. Motorists are likewise encouraged to turn on their hazard lights from 6pm to 7pm as a sign that the Yellow Spark has been ignited in their hearts. "
August 21 is Ninoy Aquino Day and is observed as a public holiday in the Philippines.

STI Days..

August was the busiest months for all STI people, but celebration always falls and is always observed on the 21st.


Back when I was still a student, every year we would have an educational field trip. It was the most fun of all the days in a year. A whole day of competition and learning outside the campus. I still remember back then that programs were cascaded from center to center (branch to branch).





My Alma Mater: STI Southwoods


There are various games and competitions.Theres a search for Mr and Ms STI, theres a dance group contest, theres a singing contest, website development contest. For me I joined the Quiz Competition. When I was in second year, the college dean invited me to Join Tagisan ng Talino, I was the youngest that time in a group of 3 as my team mates were all seniors. It was a very challenging but very rewarding at the same time. I cut my classes for a month long review, Luckily we won the cluster competition and was qualified for Nationals. I was in charge or programming and concepts. The very same thing happened the following year and the following year. The only difference was.. The last time I was the senior one and my team mates are all seniors too. For 3 straight years I always come home to Southwoods with a trophy. :)

After graduation and after working for a few companies some time, I rejoined STI again, this time as one of Staff not a student, and as a person who had the most experience in the competition I get to be involved with Tagisan ng Talino again, not as delegate, but as a coach. I get to choose the best students. Jason and Bernard whom i picked amongst all the student i handled from First to fifth year. And for the 4th time.. I Came home to Southwoods with another trophy huray huray!



Last night review before competition: At Waltermart Carmona : Jason, Aby, JC, Bernard, Me, Abe .. Tagisan Team and Web Dev Team :)



Tagisan : The stage at Tanghalang Carlos P. Romulo in RCBC Tower Makati


Team Southwoods :Bern, Me, Jason, while waiting for official openning of the competition


Tambay lang sa RCBC di pa open ang Auditorium Eh


I miss STI days.. if there’s one thing I proven true that is “A teacher has the most fun and most rewarding Job EVER!”

kulitan sa faculty : wala lang :) excuse me hindi kami lahat bading..

Friday, July 4, 2008

Accidentally Sent

I dont mean to i swear its sitting in my drafts folder for almost 2 weeks when i reopen my mails and breeze through it and boom what the heck did gmail do ? i sent it? OMFG. Honestly, after realizing the biggest mistake i did i feel like blowing my head off, i want to die, its so humiliating omg! omg! omg! omg!
Well, i stood still in composure but deep inside i wanted to drown from where im standing, then finally out of courage i txted him about my mistake. And he read it, yeah, i dunno how he reacted to that but maybe just laugh at it, i guess he wont believe it anyway.
But its true, no matter how funny and how impossible it seems to him, theres nothing in that letter but pure love and honesty..
Heres how it goes..

28 years of my life and im doing for the first time, yeah never realized that i would come to the point of writting this, but i know i have to do this for myself, anyhow much shame on me bec i know this will stay in drafts forever but somehow i just want to tell you your real position in my life..

I got no idea how to say it right, but i know it is as pointless as keeping it unsaid bec i know very well that you dont love me back. I know i should not be telling you how much you mean to me and i know then again you will equate this girl to stupidity for loving someone she dont even know in reality. It is not easy to betray your own reasoning your own liking and what your heart tells you, allthemore it is not easy to feel the silent rejection, bec its more painful than the brokenheart i had from my past relationship.

I know what you're thinking about me but let me correct something, Men, they come and go in my life and some dont even make impressions to be atleast remembered. Im not desperate and i can live without men to look after me.If you wanna learn the truth, XXXXXXX (edited) i tried to be his girlfriend, and i did, and im good at keeping my obligations. I needed him, but i did not use him to get over with Macky, maybe yes i cared for him. But between you two it was far beyond compare.

Enough defending myself as it wont change anything..

True that i dont intend to be hurt again, but im old enough at this to realize that when you love someone you give them the ultimate right to hurt you, i think thats given. For some reason i cant remember exactly when u started to hurt me err (rephrase) For some reason i cant remember exactly when i started to love you.

Im sorry Edwin bec i loved you when i should not have, bec i loved you when you were just good to me, bec i loved you when i know u cant love me back, bec i love you when you can never ever be mine. But im okay i am strong right? And bec i love you i want to hear good things from you, i want you to move on from your brokenheart, i want you to live a happy and good life. Yes, It will hurt me to know that you love someone else, but then again pain would be temporary, bec i love you i want to know that you are happy.Believe me bec its true when i say that I have never loved someone selflessly as much i do to you, not with Neil, not even with Macky.

Men come and go in my life, You will remain here, you taught me so many things i never learned from my past relationship, you never seize to amaze me with your wit, you are one of the kindest heart ive come to know,and i always look up to you, i always follow you, not bec i love you, but bec you're just one great person who deserves much respect and love more than you thought you do.

Dont think that i expect you to love me back bec i dont,im too old to live in fancy, edwin will never ever love me, and it hurts but i accepted that already. Someday my feelings will change into something, someday i will love someone else, but i wont rest till i know you are already happy, bec i will never ever get tired of caring for you Edwin.

Someday i will laugh reading this letter, maybe just smile at the taught i once loved you. When that time comes, i hope we are both contented and happy with our lives.

I love Edwin Sing Tan - Thats one thing permanently added to my lifes story. Something that will always remain a part of me.

sorry better luck next mail wahahah .. ^__^

Missing Julie





Its July, i can never think of anyone else when i hear this month but only one name :Julie. My bestfriend Juliza whom i lost contact with for a long time now, I miss her so much. i hope we get to catch up with whats hot and not with our lives. Julie wherever you are contact me, you know how, i mishhh u like hell..






Hey advance Happy Bday :D (july 8th) ... <3





Sunday, June 15, 2008

Now I Know

how it feels when ...

.. you whisper i love's to yourself cause u cant tell him
.. you smile at him even if you're in pain
.. you wanna go away and yet u feel like dying missing him
.. you love and not get the same kind of affection in return
.. you exist in him only as an online character, not a real girl
.. you want to be with him but you cant
simply bec he doesn't love you
.. you have to move on, let go, even if u never had him at all

.. its more painful than loosing someone you previously own..

Now I Know ... :[

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Dear Heart

Dear Heart ..

Its been so long since we had a conversation without fighting at all. I guess theres no more need for me to tell you how much i miss talking to you.. and you talking back to me.. agreeing.. or Following.

What now dear heart?

Do i need to remind you of the things that i witness? Well, Maybe i do..

We were born the same day. The moment u started to beat was the moment i started to live. When we were younger, you were tough, but no more than though you are you remain to follow me and everything i said, you ackowledge that even we are the same in influence, i am at the top, therefore i rule over you. I have guided you for so many times and i prevented you to be hurt or be broken by anyone..It is my conscience that pulls you always to be right, to be smart and to be the girl that everyone wants.

As we grow older, ive witness that you are starting to keep secrets from me, when infact you cant but you still do..Do you remember that boy you kept for so long till highschool? you've always believed that he is the most ideal person to deserve you, when i know for sure he does not even love you, not even like you,Yeah even if he don't know he broke you into pieces you remain to be inlove with him..and whenever you feel dissapointed at some guy, to save yourself from breaking again, you come back loving him..You are a fool dear heart.

At college you fell inlove with your bestfriend, i guess that when you experienced everything firsthand, well i have to admit that i thought he was really the one for you. You were very happy, so even if i know that he is less than you can deserve, i agreed with you that time, i know there are a few flaws and time can change that. Then again it was a big mistake that you loved too much you even forget what im saying. You sinned so much and left me out, you shut me and pretended that i dont exist..You were cruel but then again, how can i not understand you, you were in love.

When he's starting to stray i told you that he stopped loving you already, but you kept hanging on to him, you loved him even more in the belief that you can win him back. When he's struggling to get out you locked him in, when im shouting at you the truth, you remain in denial, you remain in pain when you have the option to be free, you very well know that i cant do anything for you if you wont follow me, i was helpless seeing you bleed completely i cant do nothing but watch you cry all night and hear your prayers that i know even God wont answer. I was so tired of reminding you to hear me.. then you started to decide by yourself, something you know isn't right, but u still do, i have always been above you, but at some point, you made me feel worthless.

When he told you the ultimatum, i know how desperate you felt trying to change everything, but you are not God, and amongst all hearts in this world, youre not the only one hurting. So you are left with nothing, I guess i have to thank time and coincidence, or God if he truly exist, you've been forced to make a choice for yourself that swinging for your own benefit. To go..

Shall i state the obvious once more? Well you remained stubborn, this time you loved someone you can't even own, Ive been keeping you awake all night to realize the sin you are about to make, and to realize the kind of life you wanted that seems impossible with him, You denied my opinions so many times i was about to give up, But im happy in the end you chose to follow , if not mine, then everyone's say about you having him, or him having you as another woman. I can't rest my thoughts in the truth that you can break a family just to get what you want. Was it really love? or Just a desperation to be loved and belong after your failed long time relationship? Anyway, fate butted in, you learned it by yourself without my help and Now Im glad you are out of it.

What now dear heart? I know you felt alone and i know you are beginning to like someone we dont even know yet, but can you take a broken heart before love? can you risk the truth and remain loyal after? you have always been very loving at some point its already irrational, how can you love someone you dont know in real life? how can you be so stupid dear heart?
You've been keeping me silenced for so many times already, but now i cant help but let it all out, I can sense that you will be hurt again if you dont stop, that you will cry again if you wont allow me to help you. Illusions can only be real if you're the only one looking at it, at my point illusions remain illusions until time or actions make it real. You Love too much and i know you have always want everything to be true, you don't live in fancy, thats one thing i like about you.

Dear Heart, time will come that one great love will find you, there will be no senses needed to tell you its the right one bec we will know, both of us, not just me, and definitely not just you. By that time i can prove you, im not here to contradict you like you always believe i am.

I hope by now, you learn that i can't neglect you completely, for when you cry, i loose myself, when you break, i die.I have always wanted you to be happy, but happiness isn't all there is you can deserve. There's so much in this world that could make you or break you, luck , love, success or failures. They come and go as they please and when you allow them to beat you like hell then they would. When you are at your weakest please realize that my voice will pull you through, i may not be able to mend you but i will give you the best decisions to help you stand and live the life you are meant to have. I can't live without you, please realize the same goes for you.

When we are all in one body, How can i not care ?

Thoughful Mind

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Expectations..yada..yada..

Complains.
Thats whats in my head right now..
Questions.
I want them answered, but can be..
I have to wait, further..
I always wait..
I'm so good at waiting or I guess that what they believe..
Because actually i'm not.. I hate it, but there are exceptions and sometimes you cant direct yourself to just ignore, i guess when you love, you wait..
Duhhhhhhh ...
Grrrr.. >_<

If you're important to someone follows great expectations.. Why is that? Maybe because you think that they won't hurt you or maybe because you believe that they just want the best things in life for you like what? Luck, Love, Joy? Maybe you are wrong. Because If you love someone you are giving them unimplied right to abuse you with expectations, the very least to neglect you. Thats one fact, when you love someone, you're giving them the right to hurt you.. thats just simply because of "Expectations". I guess when you believe you are important to somebody you have high hopes, an anticipation of the future upon which something excellent is expected to happen or atleast something good or atleast nothing.. Ive been waiting long.. Too many times. But because i love, im also getting worried, because im human im also getting tired, and because i expect, i am also getting frustrated. Well, They say that Patience is a virtue. Give me more if you have it, or else i will end up, not minding at all, When that happens, Can it be called my victory? Winning over expectations.. Loosing that love within me?..

Thursday, February 14, 2008

The Best I Love You

girl to boy

how many i love you's have u heard?
how many girls have you heard them from?
i assume theres many..
thats why..
my thoughts are tumbled
seeking the best combination
to say "i love you"
and to mean it, the way no one else has
i may truly be selfish
bec i want to be the best
being remembered as the best
loved with at your best
so i seek
what will melt your resistance?
what will bring your devotion?
what will win your heart?
should i whisper it to you?
should i cry my lungs out?
i am desperate to find the rightest
and yet simplest " i love you"
a combination that will keep you forever..
.. believing.. hoping..loving


boy to girl

Ive heard so many I love You's
from girls whom i loved and left
yes, there's many, even more
thats why
my thoughts are tumbled
seeking the best combination
to believe, and say "me too, i love you"
and to simply mean it the way you do
i may truly be worthless
bec i aint one of the best
not even known a bit good
But i love you too.. no less
and so it came
Your simplicity melt my resistance
Your honesty captured my devotion
Your love won my heart
Theres no need for whispers
Cause For you I'd cry it out
In you i found the rightest
The most adorable meaning of love
A combination that will keep me forever..
.. believing.. hoping ..loving


Love Letter

I don't have the habit of imitating love letters, somehow this one's an exemption.. I like this very much as the flow of thought was never jeopardized for creativity. it may seem simple when you first read it it ..may seem shallow, but theres more into it..


1 "The great love that I have for you

2 is gone, and I find my dislike for you

3 grows every day. When I see you,

4 I do not even like your face;

5 the one thing that I want to do is to

6 look at other girls. I never wanted to

7 marry you. Our last conversation

8 was very boring and has not

9 made me look forward to seeing you again.

10 You think only of yourself.

11 If we were married, I know that I would find

12 life very difficult, and I would have no

13 pleasure in living with you. I have a heart

14 to give, but it is not something that

15 I want to give to you. No one is more

16 foolish and selfish than you, and you are not

17 able to care for me and help me.

18 I sincerely want you to understand that

19 I speak the truth. You will do me a favor

20 if you think this is the end. Do not try

21 to answer this. Your letters are full of

22 things that do not interest me. You have no

23 true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,

24 I do not care for you. Please do not think that

25 I am still your boyfriend."


So bad!! However, before handing over the letter to the girl, the boy told the girl to "READ BETWEEN THE LINES", meaning-only to read >> 1.3.5.7.9.11.13 (Odd No.'s) go read it once again but the Odd Number lines..

Sunday, February 10, 2008

5 / 20 Courtship Tips For Women

I
Only consider courtship at a time in your life when you are ready to consider marriage. Until that time–foster the virtue of friendship and hold off the romance until you are really ready for it.
II
Only enter into a courtship with a man whom you would consider marrying. A woman might consider “just” dating any guy that she’s attracted to as long as she has no sense of long-term commitment. The problem arises when she’s grown attached to him after a period of time and can’t bring herself to breaking off the relationship, even when it’s not good. She may end up marrying a man that she otherwise would not have. Set the stakes higher–only court with a man you’d consider marrying.
III
Enter a courtship to discern whether or not you are called to marriage with a certain man. Courtship is dating with a purpose. If you know that you would not consider marriage with this man, or you are not ready to consider marriage yet, then don’t enter into a courtship. Stay friends or acquaintances for the time being. Courtship is about prayerful discernment, which means you will decide either that God is not calling you to marriage with this man or that He is not. Both outcomes are valid in a courtship!
IV
Take time through prayer to discern God’s will. You need to foster prayer in your lives individually and as a couple. You can not know God’s will without prayer.
V
Base your courtship in the family: As much as possible, spend time with each other’s families. This is so important–for if you do end up married, you’ll want to get along. Family is an invaluable resource and such an integral part of who we are. You will learn much about each other by seeing how each other relates to family members. And your family, in turn, can give you much insight about the man with whom you are courting (and his family, about you!) Family sees things we don’t always see. Love can be blind at times–family (and friends) can really help to correct our vision. If you are far from family, make every effort to get home and spend time with them. And in the meantime, adopt a family (friends from Church, for example) to provide for you all the benefits of a family-based courtship.
Taken from CourtshipNow.Com

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

General Cleaning

Nobody's Girl.
I am .. as nobody owns me now, neither do i own anyone, i am free, and i choose to be like this until the right time comes or until the right person comes. I won't look around, i will only go forward, for ward, forward, no more side steps, no more turns, no stepping backs ..
Hope lost me, so i let go of hope .. But i am filled with something different hope cant even outwin. This time i'll let God work for me .. I have a strong desire to forgive, forget and wish for an ideal relationship with everyone, even with them who left me, even with him who hurt me.. I can only see the best things now.. Funny, last night was very short for me to realize that everything has no sense at all when it took me two years (or more) to hold back ..
From now on, I'll be stepping out of his shadow, and let me begin by cleaning the clutter here in my blog, Neil needless to say i should remove our pics because i have already done that a few hours ago.. Ive returned his password to his friendster account, i've returned the key to the apartment, i've erased his number from my celphone, his email from my YM, his and his family's contacts from my Chikka, i've deleted his character in Aruarose, i've done all the possible way to completely erase him from my present life..
I'm trying to live out of his shadows now.. or even before since i left elbi, but only recently i found the courage to leap longer not just merely step forward.
I know i can't be wrong doing this.. how can i be? When it feels just so so so Right !

I Should Love Myself (daw ..)

Once alone in Ayala Ave, Ive met a long lost schoolmate .. I'd be honest, i was surprised because he was totally different from how he was when we were just "kids" .. It was a short five minutes, we were both waiting for a cab, him going to Market Market, and me off to Pacific Star.. I was more surprised when he mentioned, having felt sorry for me.. i would not be able to guess why, but he mentioned that he sort of read some from my friendster profile, some from my friendster blog and some from here .. I was flattered lol.. and even at a short five minutes time we touched so much things, considering we haven't seen each other in the last 15 yrs. He was so different from the way he was before. And in amazement i just stare. It was an extremely nice change. Before I hailed the cab approaching, he took my celphone from my hands and typed his number quickly, made a short call to his own cel to get my contact details, gave me a quick kiss on my cheek and said he'll see me some other time. I never said yes nor affirmed nor refuse, I just smiled..
As i was near the corner of Buendia, i received a msg from him.. "Love Yourself More.. You are one lovely creature to be living with a broken heart.."
And as i get off the cab infront BPI Buendia, i realized, Yeah .. if i cant find love, well then I'll let Love find me..

Monday, February 4, 2008

Emptiness , All There Is

Y__Y
I Don't Know..
Maybe Im just really the emotional type, considering what im going through. This is the first time in 8 years that i will be celebrating Valentines day without somebody. LOL, do i even need to celebrate it?.. My friends say it doesn't matter, not even half of the world enjoys the day, and im part of more than the other half, therefore i may not have somebody, but, i have everyone. LOL whatta consolation..
Honestly, even in the last 8 years, I never remembered spending Valentines day with a Bang.. Talking about luck.. Never had that in my past relationship. Not even a memorable heart warming and feet sweeping Valentines day, what a misfortune.
February 14, fast approaching now, i feel so empty, but i know that deep inside i am extremely lonely. And i know its very shallow, but as each day pass by, i'm getting more and more stressed and i know its showing, i am very irritable now and my patience is down low, im getting tired at simple things , i cant sleep and i feel very sick. Maybe, I am in denial, just trying to be happy when i am truly not, or maybe im trying to cling to the past i am used to, even if i know there wasn't a blissful moment to recall.
Im tired of fearing the holidays, im tired of feeling empty, im so so so tired of being lonely..

Friday, January 25, 2008

Picture Picture Picture !!!

One Tanghali nagtrip kami ng sister ko magpicture picture, eto po ang lumabas pero konti lang ang picture nya dyan kasi po, shy sya heheheh. and dahil blog ko to at hindi kanya kaya puro ako toh.. hehehehe. luv you


Hays pagod..


Sad =( sad =( sad =(



candid nyahahaha


fallen angel (yeah)


look beyond my eyes


Hola hehehe


Without Make Up


Am i Right?


Huh, No Signal?


My sister Pia and Me


Must Sleep .. Y__Y


Pucker those Lips baby!! hehehe





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Memoirs : Feb 21 1999

Feb 21, 1999 (pic date)

LOL. Look at me >__< .. so young... well we are both very young then.. He was my bestfriend and partner in everything, he was my protector, my constant admirer and yet he was my deepest agony, my most painful struggle, my dream, my inspiration, he was the source of my happiness, my strength, he was my weakness, my most sensitive piece, he was my music, my thought, my wisdom.. He WAS . He isn't anymore and will never ever be.. Im glad ..

Sunday, January 13, 2008

The Bigger Leap

LOL . I haven't been even certified and yet i wrote this. Well, not that i'm confident i will pass it but i know that i can do my best at times, and one of those time MUST be, tonight . Lol
Well, i guess everyone's clueless.. and even my constant blogger friends and blog readers wont be able to comprehend. Okay, here's how it goes..
After a long time hibernation from the real-world i've decided to to step out of the world again and reclaim myself. I found a job in one of the call centers in Makati and believe me, not in my closest imagination i thought of being with this company. However I gave it a chance, anyways, Im trying to live my life away from the "usual things" and i'm striving , this time doing some "unusual ways". Err, im not selling drugs LOL.
I must admit that letting go of myself is tasting sweeter and sweeter each day. I never thought that meeting people, having friends, being with a company would be so much fun that im really getting addicted to it..But being the independent person that i am, i know that people come and go into our lives and that nothing in this universe is more permanent than change.
Well, after almost a month of classroom training, our class will be dispersed to different subteams with different scheds and Offs, Huh..I dont like that, but well, thats how it really goes, we dont trully expect our schedules would be so uptight we cant even have a common rest day, i guess, the videoke and beer days are gone, too soon.. =( . Sad..
My life right now is not perfect, but it certainly is not the worst, in fact, i'm happy, yes i am and its been so long since i last said I was.
My new friends taught me a lot of things i should have known already at my age , but only recently i learned that its okay to get close and to get lost, to belong and to depart, that its okay to laugh your heart out today even when you know, it will break tomorrow. at the moment, im learning to enjoy even things that would not last, im learning to accept momentary beauty, im beginning the see the importance of existence, no matter how short, how simple,no matter how odd..

WaMu 23C

So for everyone, thank you so much for your friendship.. We wont stop here guys, we will see each other from both ends of the floor right? Anjo, James, Vada, Ehmei, Lanie, Icee, Irvin, Julius, Raymond, Louie, Ges, Vince, Pyke.. Everyone, Thank you very much for making me comfortable, cared and remembered. because of you guys..
Im moving forward, im moving on.